Old Man

The Road Now

 I stood in front of the hillside I looked up to the sky and asked you for help.

To deliver me from the current situation it would take a miracle.

I looked down and saw the path leading up the hill.

The days followed spent in silent communication with that which I assume is always there.

Sentence after sentence spoken with the need to have a vision of what is really before me.

Not willing to stop what I have been doing for so many years because I believe.

I believe in you and what you represent.

I feel forgiveness on a daily basis because I stray every hour.

I sense my inner turmoil but know I am receiving signal that I need to decipher.

I am in need of the key to this door that frightens me.

I’ve no one to turn to for I am old.

So I stand before you and try to see you as my children see me.

 

 

The Road Now

Roots Elude Me

The Road Now

This soul reaches and finds

Friendship is not always what it appears to be

Must I give up who I want to be

Must you own what you think I am

Can I be who I want to be

A visit to the wise man tells me

This soul is weary

This soul needs peace

This soul finds none

Roots elude me

The Road Now

A Dream Ends

The Road Now

Having set out little over a year ago chasing a dream that has now become a ghost. I find myself  looking deep into that which is now so clear. I ask why did I not see it? The Warning signs were there perhaps clouded by the need to be different from those who so easily accepted the current state of the economy. Having the hope of a life long dream coming true I moved ahead believing that my inner questions were heard as prayer.  Prayers being answered by my footing being firmly planted on the path I saw before me.  Everything  seemed to be falling into place. Must be God sent I thought so keep going. Now the sheep appeared and followed the chosen Shepherd. Eventually the sheep would leave the shepherds site and continue without him. Some would harbor doubt that was quickly set aside in hopes that the positive thoughts would be enough to transform into the dream we chased.  Today I look at your signature and hear you laughing as a dream is crushed by the shoes of a perfectly perpetrated fraud.

The Road Now

Death Before Birth

The Road Now

The End Came As Death Lay In Wait…Of The Rescue That Never Came..Leaving Behind The Guilt That May Never Be understood….If  I Should  Be Given A Chance To Speak From Where I Have Been Destined. I would Scream Out, and Say…Forgiveness is yours……Move forward and Know What Happened Was Because That Which Was Did Not Have The Acceptance of  Reality. …Love Was Not Known In The Silence That Was Demanded From Those That portrait the goodness of love. The Love That Existed Only In The Pain Of  That Which Was Now Gone.

The Road Now

The Cliff At Your Feet

The Road Now

Today I realized who you are. Or perhaps who I once was. You chase the empty dollar. sacrificing the friendship that stands at the ready. In hopes of achieving that which is not. Security is more than $$$$$$.Yet you do not see it. Phone rings and you forget with intention that voicemail exists. You stand at the edge of a cliff and see it as a beach. When will you realize that you will jump without chosing to do so. We will catch you when you fall. We are your friends, we ask that you put us before the phone, before the money, before the car.We are the ones that will carry you. The same way the truck carries that car you care more about. The message is clear, without me, without us, without love, all you have is a dollar that disappears as quickly as it appears. Our love is forever,the dollar is……………….. Disappointment is a symptom of that which destroys the soul of those that deny the truth.

The Road Now

Happy 4th of July 2009

The Road Now

I have no fancy words

To describe how I feel

About the men and women

That have kept this country free

On this day I hope that

Everyone remembers

To pray for the safety

Of those currently serving

This great country

Lest we forget

The cost of Freedom

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Sea of Love

The Road Now

Fear is watching your every move

Waiting for the chance to consume you

You fall into emotional waters

Tumbling faster as the days go by

Deeper into the darkness

Struggling you begin to see

Everyone offering something familiar

Familiar before obsured by Ego

Adam

The Way I See It-&-God as My Glasses

The Road Now

The Way I See It

Even though things happen that you could not foresee

With the right pair of glasses and of course some good friends.

You can get through anything.

By: My Buddy

Truitt Beitz

(brother to Alexandria Zepeda)

 God as My Glasses

Sitting with my buddy Truitt talking about the things that happen in life. We came to the conclusion that God makes a good pair of glasses. We wear them Daily

Adam

FaceBook

The Road Now

I finally gave into the pressure from friends and family.

Got myself a face book

Now what?

Adam

Grief or Guilt

The Road Now

I see you but know not where you are

There somewhere in the darkness

Your soul weeps and you have faded

You should have

You could have

You would have

You did not

You must come forward

Out of the darkness and forgive

Yourself

 

Adam