The Road Now
When my grandfather died I had nobody to turn to.
I did not cry, I was not sad and those around me called me names
I did not know what I was, I did not know what I felt.
Life later defined this day as lost, angry and confused
One week earlier I sat with the old man and listened as he spoke not the usual riddle.
He told me he was leaving this earth and I would no longer see him.
He shared two words with me, sacred words they turned out to be.
For many years these words would bring me light and guide me through the darkness.
My darkness being me, running, him leading as my wounds.
My loss was great, evidenced by the dent in my soul
Peace, Love, and Understanding I would not find until my own son and I traveled
Into a land unknown by me since I was a young boy, together we journeyed
The land was unkept and littered with weeds and a fading light of a marker hoping to be noticed.
There I saw his name and cleared the land as my young son watched
Anger, hurt, and disappointment ascended from the soil into the heavens
I began to understand and it was clear to me
Leaving was not something he could have controled
Yan Yak my friend in your time of grief, and forever as you walk forward
In the abundant light that you so freely share
May you find Peace, Love and Understanding
The Road Now
September 13, 2011 at 09:31 |
Stay strong. Your work and your writing is amazing. God will get you through your grief. Thank you so much for having a link to my blog on here!!
September 13, 2011 at 09:41 |
I am so happy you stopped by. I have been reading your blog and I cry about your loss. I pray that God light your path and help you heal.
October 15, 2011 at 17:00 |
hey friend–thoughts with you–sorry been so long for me to comment–still enjoy coming to your blog–can so relate to what you write–take care
November 9, 2011 at 23:04 |
Hi. I’m slightly under the influence visiting ghosts. How are you?
November 9, 2011 at 23:07 |
My number is the same. I’m still here should you need an ear. I haven’t forgotten.
January 4, 2012 at 19:42 |
Adam,
This is amazing. I don’t know how it is that I’m only just coming to see this now, as I opened my email and there it was, above your message from this evening, but I thank you for your words, your caring and your understanding.
Love & Peace,
Jill
January 4, 2012 at 19:58 |
Thank You Jill
I wrote it because the light was interrupted and I felt the pain.